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Amazing amounts of fail lately

I'm just the king lately at fucking up some relationships, doing the wrong thing, saying the wrong thing, joking about the wrong thing. WOW! This last week has just been one big fuck up after another. I was an hour late meeting Angela last Friday, can't seem to get things sorted out to have Katie over to meet Kat, riding the roller coaster of relationships with my wife and her best-friend trying to keep them connected despite all the hardships. Now I come to find out that something I said over chat recently was misconstrued and my friend that I love has been harboring ill feelings about our relationship because of it. I'm such a clod. I need to just not joke over chat. It too often comes off wrong or I have to turn around at some point and explain myself. I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out why I said what I did and while I remember one part of the conversation fairly clearly, the part that caused problems I don't recall and the only reason I can think of for saying it, was as a joke. I'm going to switch to Skype and voice with Amanda where possible. She's too important to lose over some missed nuance or false conclusion.

Amanda I know you are reading this. Or at least hope you are and haven't quit listening to my rants. You are such an amazing friend and I never want to lose that. I know I must appear to be some kind of lecher for saying what I did but nothing could be further from the truth. I don't want to lose such a great person in my life over a misunderstanding or a mistranslation of what was said. It's most certainly my own fault for not clarifying myself immediately. Please just chalk it up to me being a dumb-ass. I've been doing a lot of that lately.

My apologies to Angela too, for making her wait over and hour and drive all the way out and all the way back for nothing. I know I already apologized a couple of times but it bares repeating.

My apologies to Katie for just having horrible timing lately. I hope you and Kat and myself can connect soon.